Where will Bhagwan go ?

FROM MY-LIFE-AT-SRIRAMANASHRAM.
BY SURI NAGAMMA.
WHERE WILL BHAGAVAN GO?
Dr. Guruswami gave some homeopathic medicine and went away saying that he would come back a week later when he would say whether he could take up the responsibility of treating Bhagavan. It seems he remarked that the wound might not after all be cancerous in nature. That remark cheered up everybody. Before leaving, Dr.
Guruswami Mudaliar had said that it would be beneficial if Suryanamaskar (salutation to the Sun God) could be performed. Balarama Reddi offered to get it done at his own cost if Bhagavan could permit it.
Bhagavan said, “Why not? Do as you please. It is always good to perform Suryanamaskaram.” A pundit was accordingly appointed
and he began to do the Namaskarams from then on at the
Vedapatasala. Every day when after the Namaskaram Bhagavan was given the Thirtha (holy water), he would take it as sacred medicine. Some devotees remarked that those prayers were being done by a pundit for a fee but that it would be much better if someone did them with great devotion without expectation of payment. I had never
offered prayers at any time for personal favours or reward, but it occurred to me spontaneously to take up the work for Bhagavan’s sake. Encouraged by others, one evening, I approached Bhagavan for permission. He said that the Suryanamskaram was being done already. I told him I knew that, but would do them in my own house as
well. Realising my sincerity of purpose, Bhagavan said, “That is all right. You may. It is good. I merely mentioned that it is already being done here.”
Accordingly the very next day, I began this practice. Previously, some women devotees had started circumambulating the hill together once a week for the improvement of Bhagavan’s health. Now some men also began doing it.
The tumour was bleeding so profusely that it had to be bandaged both morning and evening. At this, some of them wept and said, “We are afraid Bhagavan will soon no longer be in our midst”. Laughing at their words, Bhagavan said, “Oh! What an idea! Where will Bhagavan
go without being here? Where can he go?” When we heard the Master’s answer, we had high hopes of the tumour healing up, but on second thoughts I felt there was a double meaning in those words. Bhagavan had said, where will Bhagavan go? Where can he go? But
he did not say where Bhagavan’s body would go? This doubt was worrying me continuously.